or more like too much emo/slice of life anime/manga/comics/book/dramas/movies/tv shows. but really you got to agree with me that rin is BLOODY cute, that makes you want to have kids... okay not now but like to have a kid like her (if possible)

 

*finally i have a coloured ver of this shot* (screen cap from the anime, all rights goes to production I.G.)

but that is not the point of this post [yap every photo on this blog is like not really related to the topic, but really i dun have much pics in my database that i can really use]

okay but really i just need to think out loud at least once here, (if u read this, i think we really need to hang out more together, cause really, i starting to feel the strain)

I am really those kind of guys that find most shounen mangas/anime are not my thing, (god knows why are they still so popular with some people of my age group) I really follow seinen and josei stuff. (yes i read shoujo mangas if they are nice).   

take example, this season of anime, i only followed USAGI DROP ( am i turning to a lolicon or i just want to have kids.....) and Kami-sama  no memo-chou ( okay alice is a loli, but the story is good and she is a NEET). the other stuff? i dun seem to be interested at all. * i rather download season 1 to 6 of "How I Met Your Mother" than to watch... mhh tiger and bunny..* i will rather read Oyasumi Pun Pun over one piece or even FMA.*

Just look at the manga collection i have at home. Welcome to the NHK, GENSHIKEN, TRINITY BLOOD, PEACEMAKER, alot of asano inio stuff. Kurosagi Corpse Delivery Service, MPD, March Comes in Like a Lion, hourou musume, ya it is a gloomy lot of manga. but i like it, i grounds me abit and realised, life is not that sucky...

okay who am i kidding, an average joe in a manga can score a girl, and i think i can do the same... think i can hold on to a relationship thanks to a manga, whose characters get together since first year of uni... who am i kidding.

what is a point of getting together, when you end up seeing each other less and less. i meant, really, we went out with each other way more before than the last few months (okay abit of my fault being in NS and japan) since we gotten together. Not to mention, we even dun skype/msn each other that much anymore..
 I know you are busy, that why i trying not to spam sms/tweet/call/msn you all the time, but it really can get lonely when I have to be the one contacting you all the time, i dunnoe your schedule and i need you to give me a signal to know when you are free (or free-er or when u are on travelling or something). And true, i am those kind of stupid nerdy guys who dun dare to do something romantic coz i think too much ( worried whether you will like it, or find it too chessy or worse you telling me off), i am trying my best, but if this is going too onesided, i am starting to run out of ideas. and i really dunnoe what to do soon.

haiz, i think i should say this to you in person but i am such a wuss...  (and this whole blog post dun make any sense)
i am starting to dunnoe what to do, and blogging actually dun really help does it?

fuck this shit, i go and look at rin's smile once again. XD